Life keeps you busy with tasks that take away from what you truly love…..which for me is my blog. And while life gets in the way and I’ve always intended to get back on here, it has just taken a little longer than usual.
But thankfully, I have found the time to carve out of my life to get back to what truly makes me happy.
In the time I’ve been away so much has happened and my life has changed….and I have changed.
I ended up finding a job on the last week that my severance was to run out. Which was a blessing. It is with a Real Estate Agency. While I want to love this job, it has turned out to be nothing as was promised or expected. If you have ever seen “The Devil Wears Prada”, that is my life on an everyday basis. Me being the Assistant and my boss being the Devil. I took a huge pay cut, but a girl has got to do what a girl has to do. While I do not see myself there long-term, it is a paycheck and it gives me a clear idea of how I never want to act when and if I ever own a company.
I should have know what I was getting into when a girl who only works weekends saw me there my second week at work and said “Oh…you’re still here? Boss Spawn From Hell (as she will be called) has gone through three assistants in 9 months!! Not a good thing to hear on your second week of work, but I can see why it was said.
The next big change was I finally moved and found a new place to stay. Not really by choice!! With a cut in pay and having difficulty paying the rent, my landlord thought it was time I found some place new to live. Stress to the max!! But one thing I will say, is he was really nice about it and forgave my past rent and gave me time to find a new place to live and promised to give me good references to my new landlord. Which was a blessing. So in one month, I packed up a huge five-bedroom house, sold many of my personal belongings and found a two-bedroom duplex two miles from my old home. Is has been tiring and trying, but I have now been in my new home since June 30 and couldn’t be happier the way things turned out.
And the last big change was my mother and I decided to share the place together. At first I held off on this because I didn’t want to live with any and wanted to go about living my life with the ability to come and go and not report to anyone. But my mother missed living down here and I really enjoy having her here. She was a big help and savior in all of this. And was with me that last day moving out of my old place as I lugged everything except three large pieces of furniture from 9am Sunday and did not finish moving until 5am Monday Morning. My mom being with me every step of the way even though she was exhausted from her move the day prior.
It will take a little used to having someone as a roommate, but my mother and I discussed our downfalls from when we lived with each other before and think this will work out. It will be good for both of us in the long run, and I am so blessed to have such an amazing woman help me after all I have done to wrong her.
A lot of the same cast of characters are still in my life, and it is funny how they all disappeared when the going got rough. Blue Eyes (yes, him and I still see each other) was nothing but a source of frustration and anger as he couldn’t see why I couldn’t spend time with him during all of this.
The Bartender is still in the picture…but no longer. He ended up becoming a no-show a week before my move and did not offer a thing, even though I woke up early on many of my Sundays off to take him to work when his car died.
Mr. Greenjeans is still hanging around, but again after all his promises of coming to help….go figure, he did not.
The Fisherman and I started to rekindle something, but his constant secrecy made me put a quick end to that.
Mr. New York would have helped and offered words or encouragement, but he is in New York and couldn’t help.
And yes…..TDWF is and has been out of my life since September 2012 when I kicked him out of my car for the last time. So he is finally a moot point in my life.
The only good thing about moving is I have not given any of these people my new landline phone number nor my new address. And they are not going to get it either. They have proven their worth….which equals nothing. After all I have given up for them and done for them, not once was an offer (except by Mr. Greenjeans) ever extended. Being the proud person I am, I didn’t even ask. I paid two guys I found off of Craigslist $75 to move the large things and the rest was up to me and my mother to move the rest. It was hard and laborious…and I even went to work that Monday when I finally finished moving at 5am. But at least I do not owe them anything. Which is exactly how I wanted it.
And my mother was right….they were all quiet the week/s leading up to the move, and the next day after all the texts and called started flying in from all of them. Mothers really know best.
But at the end of the day, I can proud that I did it all on my own without any help from them. Without that hanging over my shoulder and coming back to bite me in the ass.
I hope I can learn that the only people you can rely on are your family and true friends. And not any of these people that I give free passes to on a daily basis. And for what? In the end, it turns out for nothing.