There are moments in one’s life that only come around every once in a while. And a decision has to be made to go with the status quo or make a bold move and voyage into new territories. A place foreign and untouched. It may be uncomfortable; but also incredibly invigorating and opens up the possibilities of a fresh start and a new beginning.
Today was that day for me!
I resigned from my job that I have been unhappy with for sometime.
Was it a smart move, considering I do not have a job lined-up? Who knows. But the option of living in a job that made me completely sick every day did not seem like much of an option any more either.
My Boss was in town today and I asked if we could talk. Needed to have a sit-down with him discussing how unhappy I was in this current job situation and how I did not feel it was worthwhile for me to travel an hour or more out of my way for a job which could be completed from our satellite office or my home. It wasn’t the only thing that made me unhappy. But the one I started off with in my discussion with him.
He knew the situation of me getting sick on the way to work yesterday and offered me a couple of options to try to rectify the situation; 1.) I could continue to go drive out there twice a week after I took a week or two off to get myself feeling better. 2.) I could work Monday/Wednesday/Friday if I felt like my MS would preclude me from making the trip. or 3.) He would give me Four Months Severance Pay with Benefits and pay out my Sick and Vacation time. And on top of that, keep me on as an On-Call employee and pay me big money to keep me on in situations where I am needed.
All I needed to hear was the word “Severance” and I was all over that. Especially knowing he does not offer that option to anyone in the company. So it was a pleasant surprise and one that did not take me long to answer. Knowing how I absolutely “HATED” this job to the point it disrupted my health and sleep, I know this was the best decision for me. One that I was willing to take knowing this is not how he does business.
And once all was said and done…..such a relief was off my shoulders. A relief knowing I would not have to do that job or work for that company one second longer.
I have been working since I was 13 years old, and tomorrow is the first time where I am waking up without a place to go for work. Is it a little scary? Yes! But is it also something I am going to take advantage of? Hell Yes!!
Tomorrow will be a time to piece out a plan. Consider my options of what is available to me. Take that Real Estate Class I have been wanting to take. And start a whole new career. Go to school to get my Bartender’s License and carve out a new niche. Network with all my former business associates. Get on the phone. And mail out my resume like a madwoman. These are all things to investigate and see if they are in my best interest.
Hell, would be perfectly happy living in a little hut and braiding people’s hair on the beach for a living. And moving out of the area definitely could be a possibility as well. One that is not out of the realm of discussion.
The reality is this is a fresh start for me. One where I can carve out a new life that finally makes me happy. Doesn’t make me rely on other people or a man for my happiness. Because I haven’t been happy for a while. I know that. You know that. And this could be the chance that finally turns the tables in my direction. Or I can fall flat on my face. But I won’t let that be an option.