As of late, I’ve had a difficult time finding inspiration for my writing. Things come and go in my mind, and yet the blank white screen continues to stare back at me. It is all a process, and one night soon I hope to be awakened by the Writing Gods and my fingers will go non-stop clicking the keys of my keyboard.
It’s probably just a let down from the holidays, and all the busyness that comes with them. And now I am left in bed with the flu/cold, and my brain to fried to come up with a coherent sentence, let alone a blog worthy of hitting the “Publish” button.
This is also coupled with the fact that I just found out my grandmother was diagnosed with Breast Cancer. And all the crazy, scary and sad feelings that come with that. And also regret. Her birthday was Sunday, and I was so tired from my long and late night date with “The Bouncer” that the day got away from me and I never got a chance to call her. As of right now, she seems like she is okay, and I hope that continues for her. At the young age of 89, she has been dealt a lot, but is also one of the most active women I know. Even if her age has slowed her down only a little.
And I am mad at myself that today was “Mr. New York’s” birthday, and I managed to wish him a Happy Birthday after everything he did to me, yet did not get a chance to someone who has been good to me my whole life.
But she is a fighter, and I know this will be another obstacle she’ll wage a big battle against.
Did not make matters any easier that my brother, probably in his drug-induced haze, called her hysterical late last night, said he was driving up to see her, and no one has heard from him since. Hopefully he is okay, but he wants and likes when we worry about him.
All of these events have let me trying to gather my thoughts and say a little prayer for my grandmom.
So it makes it a little easier and less stressful now, that despite my runny nose, achy joints, headache…..I have my follow-up job interview tomorrow. It all is put in perspective when there is other people dealing with a lot worse in their life. Will just go in, tissues in hand and my best concealer to hide my red nose, and do my best.
The only thing not stressful in life right now is “The Bouncer.”
So all in all, when I look at what other people are going through, I would say I’m pretty lucky.
I have recently prayed for miracles and got one. I asked for stuff and I got responses. So I will pray for your grandmother. I know what you are going through – well sort of. You’re in my thoughts
I appreciate that and thank you so much. Hope the miracles are what I think they are. But either way, glad your prayers were well received!
My mum doesn’t have cancer thankfully.
That is what I was hoping you were going to say!! If you wrote a blog post about it, I am still way behind trying to catch up. That is such GREAT AND FABULOUS NEWS!!
Sorry to hear about your grandmother…hopefully she will fight through it!
Thank you so much for your thoughts!!
I know the feeling I seem to be struggling with blank page syndrome all week. I’m sorry to hear about your grandmother but she sounds like a fighter will be thinking of ye. Lily
Blank-page syndrome seems to be going around just like the flu is! Hope you can get past it too. And thanks for your well-wishes. It is really appreciated.
I am having issues with writing topics myself. You are blessed you know. ((Hugs))
Thanks so much! And hope you can get past your writing topics too. Maybe it’s just the time of year?
I think so. It is okay. I am still coming up with things to write, it is just more difficult.
Sending prayers to your grandmother and family.
Thank you so much. That is very kind and really appreciated.
Oh i am so sorry to hear this news.. I pray your Grandmother comes through this okay and stop beating yourself up over guilt.. it happens, just make notes to check in on her regularly as she will need love & moral support.
Hope you also get to feeling better..
Thanks for your kind words of support. She is a tough one (in a good way) and that will surely come in handy for her now.
So very sorry. She sounds like a great lady! Take care of yourself and those you love… and enjoy the guy
Thank you so much. My grandmother’s doctor said she is pretty healthy otherwise (besides her diabetes) so she has that working in her favor! Will definitely hold close all who I love. And thanks about the guy. Things are going good….so will keep fingers crossed!
Hope all goes well with your grandmom and your interview.
Thanks so much!! The interview went well and my grandmother is doing well…..so glad she’s a tough one!
Wow, you’ve got your hands full… I’m sorry to hear the news about your grandmother… seems like lots of people I know are having a rough time right now… I sincerely hope everything works out for the best. I’ll be holding you and your family in my thoughts and sending some positive energy your way
Thanks so much. And I agree that it seems like a lot of people are coming along tough times. Hope things are going okay for you!!